Current mood:

hopeful

//Firewalled against everyone but Piper//

I finally told Piper -- about the things I've been seeing, and the voices I've been hearing. She thinks it's just my doubts manifesting themselves and that I should ignore it. It seems so real.

She's right. I ned to let go of the past. What happened with Gideon was necessary. I had to protect Wyatt. And Zola...wasn't my fault. I have to trust that the other Elders aren't like Gideon. I have to trust myself that I will find my way again.

//Firewalled against everyone//

I need to figure out something to make all this up to Piper and show her how much I love her. I have missed her more than I can possibly describe.

I wish I'd never been chosen to become an Elder. I should've said no. Love is more important that duty.

//End firewalls//

It felt good this past weekend to be sending the Charmed Ones to protect an innocent and vanquish an evil. It was almost like old times.

But the part of new times that I will never want to give up was falling asleep with Wyatt and Chris in my arms.